But for each moment of these 3 and a 6 years, I had a
shrewish, itching, aching feeling that he would ne'er be the correct one on
behalf of me. Despite his nice heart, he lacked ambition and drive and handled
his finances terribly poorly and, at the center of it all, was terribly
insecure despite being a bright and engaging guy. I understood him, though. I
understood that his family had ne'er ready him always, and therefore the poor
selections he had created as a young man had him caught in a very sticky
internet and a hole he simply couldn’t appear to dig himself out of.